shoutout of the day

I am NOT a lesbian, neither a heartless person. I am just a normal straight woman who's busy chasing after my ambitions. A man ain't got no reason to live in my life within this period. Only when the right time comes, I'll go straight ahead for marriage life instead of having a boyfriend. I do not prefer to get myself involved with the uncertainties. It's wasting my time.

Spanish freak!

Yesterday I googled for some part-time jobs that's compatible with my skills and synchronize with my schedule, since I'm still studying and currently running my final year project. Then suddenly there's an idea popped up from my mind that it might be suitable for me if choose teacher as a part-time job so that I have plenty of time for my FYP, classes, assignments and at the same time I can earn some income for back-up (fyi, I eat a lot everyday so that's one of the factors that had caused me a lot of financial problems!hehe..).

So, to make the story shorter, (since I'm running out of time coz' I have to start with the project right now), I've found a website that provides tutoring part-time opportunity for the ones who need the ob. So I've signed up & suddenly I thought that it would be better if teach Spanish as well. I'm in level 2 right now and I have another level to go to gain the Spanish language certificate that would approve me as a Spanish fluent speaker.

Though I still got a long way to go, I know that I can teach Spanish because I'm good at speaking Spanish (man, i don't mean to brag, I swear!) so it might help me generate extra income for this part-time job.

Hoccayh!

So that's all for today.

I gotta run along now.

Good day!

Lobcocks & Fartleberries

Today I became a lazyhead. I'm so lazy to check out on journals coz' I'm so not in the mood for studying. So tonight I decided to watch some horror movies through the YouTube while readin the bible of insults which i bought from the Big Bad Wolf book sales at the end of 2012(last year).

Instead of learning vulgar words, I've learned lotsa new vocabs from this lil' book and I think the way the words are expressing their definitions are more pleasant. So, no more direct vulgar words coming up on timeline afterwards!

The moment I saw this book during the sale I thought it could be a piece of joke bible for me. But now I love it coz' it contains lotsa knowledge in terms of language. Besides, I just love the book design as well. It's very attractive with it's vintage font styles and animations.

So that's all for tonight.


*By the way,
LOBCOCKS = A large, relaxed penis; also a dull, inanimate fellow
FARTLEBERRIES = Excrement hanging about the anus

Here's some pics of the book...

The Princess of Electric Violin

Today I logged into my twitter account and found that Linzi Stoppard has followed me. Initially I didn't know who she is. But after I looked into her account and checked out her videos on YouTube, damn...she's dope! I mean, she plays awesome songs using her electric violin. It sounds so glorious and makes me feel like I'm on top of the world. It's so mesmerizing! In fact, so far, most of her songs synchronize with my cup of tea. (just so you know that I have my own sort of music). So now I decided to keep updated to her posts and video uploads...

I just love the way those rhythms in her musics arise from the abrasions between the bow and the strings. Each of them touches my heart and vibrates my soul. It keeps reminding me of how powerful, beautiful and creative Allah is for creating such wonderful sounds in the world.

Fyi, her musics and performances are a quite innovative. I don't know if there are many more better violinists than her. But besides Bryson Andres, I adore her.

Seeing these amazing people encourages me to explore and learn more about violin. Since I was a little kid, I've been eager to play music instruments. Above all, I'd like to learn to play guitar, piano, drum and violin. Violin didn't seem so interesting to me. Until Nad (my elder sister) revealed to me the beauty of violin's melody. The first time I heard the sound of violin, I found it quite unique by it's sounds. It can be haunting, mysterious, curious, pretty, happy, sad, mad, scary... It's like generating many types of emotions. Like it's living. Sometimes I think that violin expresses the feeling of the person who plays it. Since then, violin invites my curiosity to know him. That's why I wanna learn violin so much..

How I wish I can earn what I've been wishing for so long...



This is one of her vids...

"This one's quite heart-warming"

exquisite

Nothing But Some Pieces of Courage

"I believe Aristotle just agreed with me"

*recalling from my previous post*

" That's why I never give a damn whatever people talk about me and my deeds"

"LESSON = PRECIOUS"

"This piece made me think of something"

My Dance. My Life.

Four days coming up for the new samosa to start up. Meanwhile I'm still keeping myself to focus on my FYP. And at the same time I'm preparing for the dance performance which is going to be right on the same day as the samosa starts. Apparently, I have to skip the classes on the first day of the samosa.

#np Bang Bang, Rye Rye feat. Mia

After two semester I left Kalakshetra just because to cope up with them blardy tough subjects so that I can earn some dean records for the semesters, I felt like something is really missing. Is it that the "Boyfriend Matter"? No, no. I ate too much? Well, yeah but that's not the answer. Oh yeap. It's because I had no life before. I quitted my dance life! Though, I still love kalakshetra even when I realized that my real future isn't to be rooted towards that field. But hell yeah, it's been an obligation in my life ever since I was little.. Study is one thing. Of course, it's the main course of the routine. But dance...it's my "side dish". Damn right. How can you ever eat rice without any side dish?? I'd rather eat Hup Seng biscuits with my favourite hot Australian's Milo! So yeah... That's the truth. Even when I dance until 1 am I can still spend the night studying. In fact, dance gives me the courage to study!

#np Miss America, Lana Del Rey

But the thing is, Umi and Nad keep asking me to stop and quit dance. Well it could be possible because I'm reaching towards the end of the degree and I have to focus on my FYP. But... Right now I'm the one who's responsible for Kalax as I'm the club's current president. I won't let go off something that I really love. This seems hard. But it's okay. I'll take it as a challenge. For this semester, I vow to to earn perfect score for this semester onwards and do very much well in my FYP.

After all, Najmi's sister, kak Liyana told me that if I can be active in co-curriculum but at the same time I can achieve dean's list, it gives me extra credit in future. It's really good for my mental and physical work out, in fact. Am I right? It's okay. In terms of this matter I love to be positive.

Be positive. You'll realize that you're just one step ahead to the top.

Be yourself! Coz' life's too short to be anybody else.

Ya Allah, please bless me in everything I do. I need your guidance. As You're my everything in my life. You're the reason I'm still breathing right now. Every moment I breathe I always think of You and feel You in my heart. I can never live without You. You are the Almighty. The only One that I can depend on other than myself. I'm craving for Your love. This crave is much more worse than anything else ever happened in this world. Amiin.

Night,

Samya

The Boyfriend Matter

Everyday

I wake up in the morning

to find that

"Who is my Mr. Right?"

is the first thing

to pop up

in mind

This seems very very

quaint

because

all my life

before

I keep thinking

about

plans for my future

I wanna be successful

I wanna be a brainy scientist

I wanna be filthy rich

I wanna have a mansion

with a huge beautiful garden

with it's landscape are so beautiful

that i created them with my own idea

I wanna have 30 luxurious cars

and more

I wanna have my own

my very own horses

I wanna have a big company

with worldwide branches

I want everthing in my life

that came

from my own

blood and crash

I never have wanted love

I never even think about it

But this time

it's so damn different

I think I'm really thirsty for love

I really miss the beautiful feeling

the flowery heart

the funny feeling

that runs through my vein

I want that caress touch

I miss it

It's been too long

I've been

heartless

I know the heart

is still beating

inside of me

But I want it back

I want to feel to feel it's beating back

I want to feel that love

The most beautiful

basic thing

that everyone ever need in their own lives

I want to love and to beloved

By a man

And sometimes I even

Childish right?
I know
But it's a fact though

Maybe it's just because of the emptiness

makes me feel lonely

And thus

the huge loneliness feelings

just simply

boost up

and leaves

me

a great courage to find 

myself

a BOYFRIEND

however

I keep pushing my heart away

from

this

BOYFRIEND MATTER

coz so far

im still way down

under the ground

from the sky

I need to climb more

I still got a long way to go

a

very

very

long way to go

I'm young though

so

What's a rush huh?

Live life cool

Enjoy

while

the Earth

is still going round

Have a blast, people!

*kids stay in school okay

ya got a lot to love

before ya fall in love

don't simply waste your time

on something

unnecessary

Just go get yourself

a lot of fun lessons

Then you can start your life!*

"a piece to be kept properly in your lil' skull"

"watch this, then you can choose either to fight or to die...as a loser"

FYP Fever

FYP! oh FYP!

The next "samosa" is coming up

I just have another week

to prepare

for the literature review

Oh only God knows how

twisted minded

I am

Sometimes...

wait

most of the time

life likes to become

complicated

i dont know if

it's me

or

the life

but

this is it

It's complicated

Shall I say more?

No more

*eloquently put*

BubyE!

the New Journey

Feb 2013
*POP*
It's already 2013!
So

This is where my very first journey of life started

Just like a normal person

Im the happiest, my mom's the saddest
My dad...
(R.I.P)
I still believe that he's still here though
He still lives
yeah
He's living in my heart...

Alright
For now
This is what I wanna say...
*Goodnight*