I am ...

Abg El once told me

"girl, you need love"

i'm well-understood

somehow i chose to stick with my stance

stay single and available

until i'm fully all set

for a serious commitment

a girl like me

never been easy on any guys

my heart is too dry to simply melt

by anyone

my heart have been cursed

that only one man

a perfect man

can bring back life

to my heart

to give my heart

it's beat

it's blood

it's 'spirit'

for I have my own way

of thinking

living

eating

staying

sex-ing

studying

everything

I have my own way

so I have to choose a guy that really suits me

Understand me

Love me flaws and all

TRUE

I'm complicated

It's not that I'm a perfectionist

But

It's because I'm scared and insecure

I loved myself too much

That I won't let myself hurt again

And I swear it won't happen again

This song suits me well

*I finally managed to cope up with myself each day*

It 'writes' about me

All in all,

I'm proud that I'm me

"I am timid and
I am oversensitive
I am a lioness
I am tired and defensive
You take me in your arms
And I fall into you
I have insecurities
You show me I am beautiful

Love me or leave me
Just take it or leave it
It's not that I'm needy
Just need you to see me

Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

I am temperamental and
I have imperfections and
I am emotional
I am unpredictable
I am naked
I am vulnerable
I am a woman
I am opening up to you

Love me or leave me
Just take it or leave it
It's not that I'm needy
Just need you to see me

Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

Now I stand before you with my heart in my hands
I'm asking you to take me just the way that I am
Please lay down your arms, do you know me?
Make me feel safe from harm

Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

I am temperamental and
I have imperfections and
I am emotional
There'll be no more pretending"

"I Am by Christina Aguilera"

"So True."

Digging up for ideas and came out with a video!

We are actually planning for some boomy performances for this upcoming February

The guests on the floor would be the participants for the International Agriculture Symposium Students

which many of them came from the

Japan

Indonesia

Malaysia itself

Emirates Arab

and other countries

so basically this performance have to be really interesting

we are given 10 minutes performance duration with two songs at least to be performed

We can't really figure out either to perform full classical Indian dance or Bollywoood dance which is too modern

Somehow in my mind was thinking that it is better to perform an original piece where we can show

the 'strangers' or introduce them one of our culture

Our president suggested to use the 'Kolatem' in our dance

wooo I think that's just too common for a classy dance like ours.

Not meant to be sceptical about it but... I think for it is just not that appropriate

to perform this kind of dance in such international level high class official function

So while I was browsing through the Youtube.com for videos of Bollywood dance

I suddenly found this video

It was interesting

And eye-catching

And marvellous!

Merelyy truely sexy!

I wish to perform this song with the same choreography one sweet day!

People please shut up and sit properly and enjoy this video!

Meanwhile i'm off to kitchen now to make a mug of Chocolate Malt

~Sweetdreams people~

The First Newborn

Today...
one of my most beloved friend have safely successfully delivered her firstborn. It's a boy. I KNOW RIGHT! OMG! OMG! OMG!!!! I could be the happiest person among her 'Mr. Apple', Abg El and Abg Zul... But... excuse me guys! I'm the happiest person here!!! Very well my sweet pretty face... Selamat melahirkan anak Killa sayang. Lepas ni boleh sambung Bharathanatyam ok. I tolong jaga anak you. Hee... I'm so proud of you babe. You've become a woman at the very early stage than me. Kau lebih hebat dari aku. SALUTE!!!

Wait3...

Why am I writing this entry in Malay??

Wataheck??

Sorry guys...

Technician severe mistakes

hee...

OK. Back to the story.

So... Killa... Seeing you as a 21-year-old mother had taught me a lesson and made me realise that actually the time has come for me to set up myself and become a woman. Seeing you with your baby boy in your arms  had also taught me how strong a woman could be and it is not impossible for me, by now, to go through everything, just any obstacles in life... I'm so gonna miss the old you, Killa.... it's just that enough... As long as I won't lose you.... My friend... Congratulations... (euw. why do I sound so old!!)

ok.

in this entry

i can't say much

because I'm too happy

to describe my words

so just let the smiles and laughters say it all

"Killa... This is for you"

This is my new piece.

The Beginning

I am not a blogger

But i love to write (type)

Yeah. That's all

(actually really have no idea what else to write.LOL)

So here's some stuff about me;

I love to dance

I'm a music freak

I like to read weird books and encyclopedias

I sometimes can be an evil but trying hard to control my manner most of the times

I'm crazy. Sometimes psychotic

I don't give a damn about people except for the ones I care about

I always try...in everything

I'm not a perfect person

I'm just me

It's always been me

And me

All the time

So this is me.

That's all.

BYE!!

Trueness & careness,

Samya gamaal